Only I know what I want, and I'll make sure I'll get it, whatever it takes?

There is a general sense of malaise going on with me for awhile now and I just cannot seem to shake it off and that itself has compounded the irritation I am experiencing. There are just too many things hovering over me that I have no control with.

The economic and political condition for one, and the self-centeredness the-hell-with-the-rest-of- the-world kind of attitude (and that's putting it mildly) that I keep encountering, one that would usually result in the "suffering-of-others-as-long-as-it's-not-me". What with the "get-rich-schemes" of shoddy I-don't-care-who-gets-hurt construction work and the purported oh-no-he-knows-too-much murder of Teoh Beng Hock and let's not forget the let's-blast-her-to-bits murder of Altantuya.

Just imagine if they are found out, would there not be loud wailings of "woe is me, where is justice", when justice is the last thing they would understand. Let's have them put in front of God and see if they can talk about justice without becoming cinder.

To go back to the very beginning, God created the world and all living things. God created us, although in his aseity he does not have to, but he did. To us he gave us his image and with that he gave us a self -- a self that has a freewill to seek for a purpose in life. And a created being who makes it a purpose in life to love his creator would be a testament to the greatness of the creator.

But no, we chose to love ourselves instead and see where it brought us?

Lies, murder, cheating, betrayal, robbery, rape, adultery, abuse, fraud, hatred, drunkenness, ... all for the gratification of self, for the worship of self.

We've become gods in our own rights and we've concluded that the only people who will show allegiance to us and who will give us due worship and sacrifices are none other than our very ownselves. Who better than I to know what I want, what I like and what I should have, and I better make sure I get it all.

And who has given the "I" so much freedom? The short answer would be God -- he has in the first place gave us that freewill. But the longer answer would be, yes God has given us that freewill but it is not without responsibility. God is still sovereign, he is holy and just. We will soon stand in his presence to be judged for the way we have spent our freewill, and we had better spent it well, or it will be to our doom.

It is no wonder then what Jesus said to his disciples and those with them:

Mark 8:34-38
If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father's glory with the holy angels.

Jesus has the answer -- Jesus is the answer.
Tell me who else has the answer other than Jesus.

pearlie